fabricated in dreams

a place for thoughts
Never too late to start. #gameofthrones

Never too late to start. #gameofthrones

endure, hang in there… it’s always darkest before the dawn breaks. 

endure, hang in there… it’s always darkest before the dawn breaks. 

(via kushandwizdom)

My addiction of tea and coffee is back. I need at least one dose of either everyday… I am not sure if the caffeine is boosting my brain or I just need them to keep my nerves. 

Currently working on some ideas for my little pet project - felt craft. My partner and my twin sent out some inquiries on logo and some banner idea for our website / social media sites. While waiting, I am practicing on the stitches and different craft ideas in my head. 

I have yet to announce to my parents that I want to put my study on hold. I don’t think I can do it all together. I have lost the stamina to study. Reading is fine by me, but not studying. 

On the side note, I am reading Gone Girl by Gillian Flynn. Blew my mind how meticulous and patient and sick Amazing Amy is. 

I told a close friend of mine that 2014 will be a year of good changes for me. I know I am a late bloomer - although it feels like I will never bloom or I have missed my train, but I am not losing hope. If it takes another 10 years to discover what I am good at, so be it. At least I am working at it.  I am in the process of changing my environment.

Quote Benjamin Franklin: If you fail to plan, you are planning to fail.

I have a plan already, taking baby steps, making necessary arrangements and so on. Preparing myself - mentally and emotionally. 

Even this, writing my thoughts down in this manner, is a change for me. One baby step at a time.

I am willing to try new things. Go to new places. I want to and am planning to dive into the world of craft making once I get out of where I am now. Making new friends is going to be hard and tiresome for me because of my personality but let’s see who will I cross paths with. 

honest entry

After two out-of-sync nights, I had a cuppa and over stimulated my brain yesterday night. Only managed to shut my eyes after three in the morning. Not a smart move, I know. But I was so determined to hack into a game I am recently addicted to. Maybe it’s time to go cold turkey already. 

I am currently trying to put together a graduation gift to my beloved cousin. Still compiling some stuff here and there. Managed to buy a container to put in all the nuggets. At the same time, another idea pops into my fickle mind. Why stop at graduation gift? Possible to expand the current idea into something more personal in the future? Need more research and work on that. 

On another matter, I am currently rediscovering myself. The past few years was exactly what I desired to be but it has definitely groomed me and of course, I have grown as a human. Not as a grown up. Because I still think that deep down, we never really grow up so to speak. We just learned to behave in public like we are all grown up. I mentioned some concerns I have to my mentor last week and it blew my closet wide open. All my skeletons are on the slab, to be examined, to find out the cause of my ‘death’. 

I am willing to make adjustments. I think this is really a time to move on already. Enough of staying stuck. I want to see what I can offer to the world. (Note: not what the world can offer me.)

In the process of moving on, I will disappoint and maybe upset some of the people that are closest to my heart but for my own sake, I need to get on to the next chapter. 

Scrambled Thoughts

Sometimes my thoughts are everywhere. From the archives of my almost three decades of life to my aspirations and desires to fabricated thoughts. This can be in a span of few minutes or over a longer period of time.

At times, I wonder how other people’s thoughts work. Are their thoughts as scrambled as mine or the are systematic and composed?

I wish I can pen down my every thoughts. Not missing any thoughts or ideas or absurd suggestions that my brain is capable of producing.

Only then I will be able to truly know who am I.

Dom Tsui: Date a man who dreams

domtsui:

Date a man who dreams.

Date a man who doesn’t spend his money on drink, or clothes, or video games, but saves what he has to go on adventures and pursue his dreams. He might have problems dealing with everyday things but no-one sees the possibilities life holds like he does. This is a man who…

Seasons come and go, but God’s promises are YES & AMEN. Trust in the certainty of promise; NOT in the vagaries of seasons!

—Brian Houston (Hillsong Church Senior Pastor)

(Source: hillsong, via letmyheartbeaftergod)

spiritualinspiration:

God has already planned out every detail of your life right down to the very second. Think about our solar system, the way it rotates. Scientists tell us that every year it’s exactly on time down to the millisecond, day after day, year after year. Hundreds of years from now if the Lord tarries, it will still be precise. That’s because our God is not an approximate God. He is an exact God, a detailed God, a precise God. He has planned out your life not just to the years or the months or the days, but down to the very second. In your future, He has marked moments where time and eternity are going to come together, and you will be at the right place and get the break you need.

Scripture says that before you were born, God knew you. He knew every one of your days before they ever took shape. Trust Him and stay in peace because your days are ordained by the Lord.

Timely encouragement for yours truly…

spiritualinspiration:

God has already planned out every detail of your life right down to the very second. Think about our solar system, the way it rotates. Scientists tell us that every year it’s exactly on time down to the millisecond, day after day, year after year. Hundreds of years from now if the Lord tarries, it will still be precise. That’s because our God is not an approximate God. He is an exact God, a detailed God, a precise God. He has planned out your life not just to the years or the months or the days, but down to the very second. In your future, He has marked moments where time and eternity are going to come together, and you will be at the right place and get the break you need.

Scripture says that before you were born, God knew you. He knew every one of your days before they ever took shape. Trust Him and stay in peace because your days are ordained by the Lord.

Timely encouragement for yours truly…